day post

Well, I've actually found myself a nice comfort-series. Gilmor's girls.

(Kindly do not laugh at me. I'm aware of this shows lacking. But - it's comforting. It's filled with an eclectic mix of everyday folks and lovable lunatics. I love - adore is more close to it - the mother- named Lorelai. She has made her share of mistakes in life, but she had pulled herself all alone out of a deep,deep hole, and she had build herself up, and she is doing her best to see that her daughter - and best friend in the world - will have the very best life. The relationship between the two is beautiful. They fight often, the love and respect and friendship on both sides here is a joy to see.

Now, Lorelai's mother...a sly, manipulative bitch, who reminds me very much of my own mother.

So, this is fun, and it's relaxing me to watch this.

For the most part, today was hard since the morphine patch had worn out on me again. So,I was in considerable pain all day. Somewhere between a very high 7 to a low 8.

Also today - talked with my GP. She thinks the Blood Screens are not too bad,since according to her they are not so far above the norm. (norm upper range - 20. Mine - 26.3). She also suggested Colo.

However, on this one I did speak with my mother, since she is suffering from IBS for many years now - over 25 I think. (Irritable Bowl Syndrome). The symptoms she has are alike enough to mine to consider it possible that I have a bad case of IBS). She receded very highly that I will ask for a Occult blood before considering for a Colo. I see no harm in trying.

My aunt is in hospital right now - she made a series in tests, and tomorrow she needs to go through a rather horrible test. I don't even want to think about it.

Mantel state - some improvement, despite the high level of pain. But I was at least more able to work today and concentrate, and that helped since it distracted me from things.

I hope this step will be helpful

I've decided that instead of sitting around and crying how lonely I am, to try to do something about it. So I've googled a bit, and found out that there are several support groups for people with depression and other issues like mine. There is even a support group in RG every Sunday evening, quite near my apartment.

So, joined the form and applied for that group, and I'm waiting to hear more details tomorrow.

Maybe having some people to talk to who go through similar issues will help somewhat. It's even not online but with actual interaction, which is more what I need, I think. And it will get me out of the house.

Also, I went and (after consulting with antongarou at some length about it) ordered a mechanical scooter,for adults (can carry 100KG). Made of Aviation aluminium, had a study build and shock absorbers. Not build for speed but build for safety. I mean to play with it in our park (there is a nice big one near our apartment. )

Again, it will get me out of the house, and it will fun . Just thinking about it makes me feel more cheerful.