My TL is annoying me. Like, so much

What's the hell is wrong with Meirav?! I ask her to go out a miserable half an hour earlier so I can collect the results of my Bone scan and make an appointment for a doctor to analyze them, and she starts guilting me? Every day " I have something"? "I can't go early every time"

And the hell, it's not that I am not willing to arive early or stay late - as I am doing today, for example. So, what's the fuck is wrong with her? Am I really so unreadable, or is she over demanding?


I let her see I am annoyed with her, this time. I told her - I asked your permission for today, so what's do you tell me down that "every day I have a problems? And how can you expect me to adjust my schedule one month ahead when the health issues are not exactly waiting for an invitation?"

She did not have really an answer, just repeated her complain.

And she never, never has a word to say about all the times I am volunteering to stay more hours when there is pressure, about me volunteering to help the newbies, about me asking for her if she needs help with anything. NO, only fucking complains about tiny little changes in the hours.

Let me tell you, I really don't think that much about her, anymore. She is petty.

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So, now the question is – is there any use of taking Meirav to a personal talk, and explaining to her just how many days and hours I have worked here, despite pain that would have sent others home or even to a hospital? I don’t think she is aware. Of how many times I have gritted my teeth, and hang on by the fingernails to complete my shift, despite crippling pain, fatigue , epilepsy attacks , depression, and whatsoever.

I don’t know if it will do more harm than good. But this present situation is actually hurtful to me, cause I genially liked her, I thought she approved of me, and feel…bad when she is acting so petti and using guilt-games with me.

So: In today’s news:

The Rabbi Ovadia Yosef, one of the giants of the Jewish world and a major political figure, died today after battling for his life for three weeks or so.

Now, I can’t say that Ovadia was one of my favorite political leaders: I remember all to well his words regarding “ those soldiers dies because they did not keep the Law”. It’s not a direct quote, but it was in this spirit.

But still, there is enormous grieving among hundreds and thousandth of people, and I must admit that I felt a lot less loathing for Elli Ishay when I heard him weeping and grieving today. His sorrow is genuine.

Right now, the whole country is one giant traffic jam, cause everyone is trying to reach the funeral in time, and we are talking about approximately 5000000 people who are expected to come. Also, closed roads, and so on.

Am I glad not to be on the roads roday. All of Ramt Gan, and beni brak are blocked, with hundreds of people fighting for a place in the busses to J-M. It’s one huge mess.

Here is an article in English:

The Rabbi Ovadia Yosef

health Dilemmas (ETA - I mixed healines.d Was that angry I did not notice

Well, am less dead than yesterday that’s nice. Hope it will keep for a while.

It might have to do with the fact that I woke up only twice tonight instead of the usual 4-5 times, every other hour or so.

My arm is a bit red and swollen as a result of the Bone Scan injection, yesterday, and it’s painful but not limiting. I hoped to escape without any side effects, but they had developed over the night.

But –I have had my first Gym session in over a week – I avoided any physical activity on account of my back. Did only half an hour, but it’s enough to regressed the situation quite a bit. Even with all the stretching I did after. And the hot shower. Annoying.

Also, took my weight – and was dismayed to see I lost only 100 G or so since last week. It’s far too slow. And I do not know if it will improve, since my neurologist wants me to raise the med level, and that med has a side effect of interfering with the metabolism and encouraging weight gain.

So, it’s a lovely choice again – do I obey him and raise the level, and then risk the weight issue? Or do I stay as I am, and risk the epilepsy episodes? What’s more risky in the long run and how the hell am I to choose?

I am to repeat the test in a month, also. Damn.