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On spelling and work problems.
Last night, overall, was fun: A small gathering, sushi (the guys bought the fish and veggies, we made the sushi), and 2 very friendly cats. It took me a while to relax enough and enjoy myself, but I came home in a somewhat better condition. It lasted for a few hours.
However, I am now quit anxious again over several issues. The fact that I am unable to do anything to assist or change things is Not Helping. Part of it is about me being concerned about the work situation. (I have a shift tonight. On New Years Eve...which is a sure guarantee of a hellish shift. Joy. ) I am also concerned about about several friends of mine.
Yesterday I was going over previous posts and was appalled: So many spelling mistakes I had missed.
Spelling was always an Issue to me. As a child I would sometimes misplace letters, even in Hebrew. It can happen even now when I am very tired. Reading was never a problem - in both Hebrew and English I can read about 120 pages per hour, and recall the information. However I had - still have - a problem to connect between correctly pronouncing a word and spelling it.
This is disturbing enough. The fact that I can read a text several times over and not recognize glaring spelling mistakes is more disturbing to me, and I don't know how to fix it. I use a dictionary, read things over, and still I can't always find all the mistakes before uploading a post, for an example.
Just like at work. I check every day all the files I dealt with, and yet despite all my efforts both during and after shift, I have many stupid mistakes. My superiors are annoyed and impatient with me by now, they blame me for carelessness and sloppiness , for not paying enough attention. And I can't explain it to them! What will I say? And how to fix it? it's driving me mad.
However, I am now quit anxious again over several issues. The fact that I am unable to do anything to assist or change things is Not Helping. Part of it is about me being concerned about the work situation. (I have a shift tonight. On New Years Eve...which is a sure guarantee of a hellish shift. Joy. ) I am also concerned about about several friends of mine.
Yesterday I was going over previous posts and was appalled: So many spelling mistakes I had missed.
Spelling was always an Issue to me. As a child I would sometimes misplace letters, even in Hebrew. It can happen even now when I am very tired. Reading was never a problem - in both Hebrew and English I can read about 120 pages per hour, and recall the information. However I had - still have - a problem to connect between correctly pronouncing a word and spelling it.
This is disturbing enough. The fact that I can read a text several times over and not recognize glaring spelling mistakes is more disturbing to me, and I don't know how to fix it. I use a dictionary, read things over, and still I can't always find all the mistakes before uploading a post, for an example.
Just like at work. I check every day all the files I dealt with, and yet despite all my efforts both during and after shift, I have many stupid mistakes. My superiors are annoyed and impatient with me by now, they blame me for carelessness and sloppiness , for not paying enough attention. And I can't explain it to them! What will I say? And how to fix it? it's driving me mad.