ernads | (no subject)

I am at work, about to begin my shift (there is no speller here, on those computers. please parden any possible spelling mistakes.) Access my computer, read mail, and find a "request" for a meeting from S: One of my superiors. The one who is harder on me, and treats me like dirt whenever I make a mistake. Which means she is about to kick my ass, and hard.

I am - scared. I don't know what to do. How to justify all those mistakes. I don'tt know if to admit I might have some sort of disorder problem as an explanetion. Why should they care, after all? This is a workplace. All they care for here is production. If you do not fit in, well...

I do not fit in. I did not fit in any system I was ever part of. It is so painfully obvious, now.

I don't know what to do. How to fix this. Advise is welcome.