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Am an angry Feneec, indeed
Am pissed off: I am so tired that I see double and can’t concentrate for the life of me; the mouse keeps shaking in my hand cause of the seizers, which were so bad today that I think Hagar was a bit alarmed by them; I can’t get a appointment for my back, and it means either waiting it out, cause till the 16/10 It will either get better or I will need ER; for every order we close 4 or 5 pour in; my TL can’t give a damn about how bad I feel – they expect 100 efficacy from me And I Can’t give it! I can’t, I can’t, I can’t the hell! I can’t give even 50 % in my state!
Am so angry, I have no words. I so want to say – I told you so. you fucked me up when there was no really need, and no when you really need me, you will get zero results from me. Am so angry that the anger radiates from me. But my TL, is pissed off as it is and has zero patience for me, and no ability to listen to me.
She is not even willing to listen to me.
But my back and neck is somewhat better – maybe it’s the night and Naproxin, maybe it’s the scarf, maybe both. So, at least here I hope there is less reason for concern than we thought. If it gets better, it’s probably just another damn inflammation, right? (there is still radiation, yes, mostly to the neck and a bit to the left leg. But the sheer intensity of pain is somewhat less. I am keeping the area warm, it’s the best I can do for i).
Am so angry, I have no words. I so want to say – I told you so. you fucked me up when there was no really need, and no when you really need me, you will get zero results from me. Am so angry that the anger radiates from me. But my TL, is pissed off as it is and has zero patience for me, and no ability to listen to me.
She is not even willing to listen to me.
But my back and neck is somewhat better – maybe it’s the night and Naproxin, maybe it’s the scarf, maybe both. So, at least here I hope there is less reason for concern than we thought. If it gets better, it’s probably just another damn inflammation, right? (there is still radiation, yes, mostly to the neck and a bit to the left leg. But the sheer intensity of pain is somewhat less. I am keeping the area warm, it’s the best I can do for i).